This won't come as news to my Snapchat or Instagram fam, but I've been down with typhoid for the past few days. And I'm not really one to complain about spending time in my own company. In fact, I usually love some down time for myself. But knowing that I'd have to spend a good week or more at home, mostly alone, was something I was really not pleased about to begin with.
However, it's been 6 days now, and as these days have gone by, I've actually got the chance to reflect on my life and the past couple of months. I've also got a much needed break from all the stress and hectic schedules, and although I am dying to get back to shoots and work, I've loved this time to myself just as much. Today's post isn't about anything in particular, it's just me being thankful and happy, and telling you that I've come to realise how everything in life can be seen positively.
Falling sick made me miss out on a trip I would have been taking to Bali, and I'll be very honest, I did not take that well. I was extremely bummed out and cribbed for days. But right now, I've started to accept that some things are probably just meant to be, while others aren't. I have so much in life to be thankful for. A year ago, I'd never imagined being where I am. The opportunities I get, the places I visit, the people I meet, it's all so wonderful. I'd rather focus on that and be grateful for it. I used to be a very different person. I'd crib about the smallest things, like the acne on my face, or my frizzy hair, or something inconsequential in my life that I was unhappy about at the moment. I still do it sometimes. And I'm not saying I'll ever be able to stop that entirely, or become a changed person, but everyday, I just want to grow. Concentrate and work on myself.
I haven't been active on my YouTube channel for a while. Despite having promised you guys two videos a week. Although I have been extremely busy and now unwell, part of me wanted a break from YouTube because the things some people said on there got the better of me. I kept thinking I'll ignore it and continue with the videos, but even though I filmed a couple, I just couldn't find the motivation to post there anymore. That thought, of course, has changed now. I'll be back on there next week, and this time I'll hopefully stick to my schedule.
I honestly have so much more to say, but I'm going to leave that for another post. I haven't had the chance to just connect and share stuff with you guys on here in a while, and after this, I definitely want to do that more often. I'm not here to give advice or anything of the sort, but I'd just like to tell you that if you want something, go get it, without letting any jealousy, negativity, or doubt get to you. For every bit of negativity, there's a lot more positivity out there. I hope you have a lovely weekend. Lots of love x